...and then as I digest my food, I "wind down" until finally I am both extremely hungry and pretty much unable to function as a human being.
I have to "recharge" myself with frequent meals.*
Also, I have to be careful of sugar because it hits me all at once. Apparently, eating a popsicle or cookie gives "normal" people a bit of a buzz for a few hours as their pancreas(?) rations out the sugar a bit at a time; I get high as a freaking kite for 20 minutes**.
|It's actually pretty fun...until the inevitable crash.|
I've got a friend going with me to the gym, by the way. I've never had a "gym buddy" before, and I'm totally psyched - the social aspect of the workouts will give me something to look forward to no matter now I'm feeling, plus I'm way less likely to weasel out of working out if there's someone to hold me accountable. Still...I'm afraid I'll have an energy crash today and not be able to do much of anything, and I'll feel like a loser. Plus, I think at this point I've surpassed "out of shape" and gone straight into "seriously atrophied" so even if my energy holds up, my performance will be...embarrassing. To me, anyway.
|I seriously do turn this red when I exert myself. Other gym-goers have stopped to ask me if I'm okay.|
Wish me luck.
*At my old job, they once took us to lunch at an all-you-can-eat Chinese restaurant. Later that day, a coworker saw me eating a salad at my desk and said, "How can you be eating?! We had such a huge lunch!" and I replied, "Dude, that was like two hours ago!" and she looked at me like I was weird.
**Even a piece of fruit can give me a buzz and a crash if I eat it on its own, without some protein to help absorb the natural sugars. Yes, my life sucks.